Who are you?
Thursday, February 26th, 2009
There is a difference between who we really are and who we think we are. It’s something I have written about in my book “The Great Work”, where I talk about the difference between the rationo-centric self, and the true self. Basically the story is that our locus of self identity becomes fixated in the rationo-centric mind. I use this term because it is a little more than the rational mind, which most people understand as the ability to reason and approach life logically by thinking things through. However the rationo-centric mind describes something a bit further than this. It describes how our self concept develops through discriminating between self and other, and adopting various rules and concepts about our self as though true. It is the part of you that says “I am this” and “I am that” and “I Like this” and “I don’t like that”. Now these sorts of statements often start as an understanding of ourselves, in response to a particular situation. But the trouble is, we change, and the situation changes, but these self concepts become part of our identity, and we hold on to them as if they were our most prized possession, long after they have passed their use-by date.
It is an example of the way we build up a mental construct of who we are, and then allow it to imprison us, by cutting us off from new experience. The relevant Tarot trump is the Tower – showing how when this happens, the divine thunderbolt arrives to knock down the tower of mental constructions, giving us the gift of a fresh start to rebuild something more suitable for our stage of life and the times we face.
An example of this process occurred to me just the other day. When I first became interested in the pagan pathway, I was very drawn to my Celtic ancestry. I identified strongly with the Deities, traditions, mythology and legends from the Celtic current. I cultivated Celtic Deities, and worked within that current quite happily. In fact, it became part of my sense of self. I was a “Celtic Wiccan”, or a “Celtic Pagan”. However what we think we are, is not ever who we really are, and in spite of our mental constructions to the contrary, our true self and true identity will manage to insert themselves into our lives, sometimes in spite of our best efforts to keep them at bay.
Often it becomes clear only on looking back, how the unseen hand has been at work, in spite of our efforts to limit our experience to a particular realm due to a mental construction of “I am this” and “I am not that”. For example, readers of these pages will have heard about my trip to Denmark, in which I visited the Troll Church, and had an experience of the Dragon Power, and my subsequent explorations and experiences with this energy through Dragon Walking. In one such experience, I encountered the astral form of a fellow wearing a brown hooded robe. At the time it came to me that he was one of the hooded ones, which I assumed to be an order of initiates working with the Dragon energy. Since then, I have had an inclination to do a little exploration with the Runes, something that I had previously avoided, being outside the “Celtic Universe”. And of course, my chosen name, Robyn Wood, resonates with the mythical figure Robin Hood, who Steve Wilson informs me is none other than the figure of Odin, transported to English shores and merged with Celtic mythic motifs. It appears that he often appears wearing a hood. Hmmmmm.
So the picture is starting to become a little clearer…and the lesson is that we are more than our self concept at any particular time. When the gifts arrive from the Gods, be ready for them, however they come. They may well come in an unfamiliar disguise! After all, most of us these days have many lines of ancestry – and perhaps it is time for me to explore some other lines, as well as the Celtic.
Blessed Be,
Robyn